May 19, 2010
All grown up & everywhere to go
Now that it's so close to putting her on a airplane I just keep hearing tick-tock tick-tock tick-tock, time won't stop, will it? Can I turn back the hands of time and get a few more moments with her? Make a few more memories? I think the fact that I'll be living in Germany for 2-5 more years it's sinking in that I can't just hop in the car and go see her. Make sure she's doing alright. Make sure she has everything she needs. Just go see her smiling face. No I'll be here in Germany up bright and early in the morning with a cup of coffee in my hand and SKYPE on my computer hoping she'll be online so I can see her. The time difference really isn't too bad. Her nights are my mornings and my mornings are her nights. Man it sure is going to be a very long 2 years waiting to see if we are going home or staying here in Europe.
When I tell you that my daughter has been my life, it's the truth. My life completely changed when I was 17 and saw her big brown eyes look up at me for the first time. She's been the light guiding me to be a great mother and to strive for a better life not only for her but for me.
Nobody ever said being a mommy was easy, putting her on the airplane to head off college is going to be proof of that. I know it will be one of the hardest days of my life.